Sun in your eyes

I hope it lasts the weekend.

Hmmmmm

My increasingly negative and obscure blog posts have been worrying some of you.
Many thanks for the 'are you ok?' phone calls and texts.
I am ok. Iv just heard and seen alot of things over the past few weeks that have fucked me off/brought me down and made me realise that I definately do NOT want to live in Dublin for much longer.
I am however, extremely grateful for my wonderful friends whom I would be utterly lost without.
Fuck the world, but thank fuck for friendship.

little girl

stays out all night and smokes hundreds of cigarettes.

This City

birth.

Its taken me twenty two years to realise that I was born in a month thats full of sadness.

This summer

is going to fucking rule. Im so excited. Iv already booked my holiday to Vancouver and New York and Im hoping to book various trips around Europe too. I can't wait to spend as much time travelling as I can this year. It will rule. HARD.

Im also looking forward to hangouts. This weekend had some of the sweetest hangouts Iv had in ages. I mostly thank Olivia, Laura and Lally for that, although there were alot more people involved :)
Thanks guys. Cheered me up no end :)

Im also trying to force myself to look on the bright side of life at the minute even though I fucking hate everything. But Im trying and its only every now and again where I think 'fuck the world'. Its annoying being posi all the time though. I dont know how people do it.
Iv spent alot of my life trying to hide my bad moods and negative feelings. I recon life is waaaay too short for that crap, but its also waaaay too short to be a moany depressing cunt too. So a nice balance between the two is what Im gonna aim for haha.

Its just becomming increasingly difficult to stay in anyway sane in this city. So many spas thinking that they're better then everyone else. It really grinds my gears.
Im not saying Im a saint, Im FAR from it but at least I can apologise and make amends if I fuck up or something.
I may be silly sometimes, but Im definately not too proud to give an apology when its due.

My new job is going very well. A little monotonous if anything buts its fine for the most part. I enjoy looking after my little department and Im already working on my top level book.
(This is a book you have to complete over a few months that basically qualifies you to become a top level manager. Which means more $$$)

What I really want to work towards is becomming a style advisor. Man I'd fucking rule at that job. Shopping all day for other people and getting lots of free clothes? AWESOME.

Im currently drinking the worlds worst cup of coffee. Fuck you maxwell house.

Fuck the world.

I hate geography.