I have been bored for the past month.
I dont really feel myself.
I really need to be challenged and active.
Not having a job makes me feel like such a loser.
I'v read all my books,
Iv gone to the museums,
I'v walked for miles,
I'v spent days cooking meals,
watching TV, DVD's and youtube.
I'v done everything that you possibly can for free.
Someone, give me a job before I go crazy.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Obsession
For as long as I can remember Iv always been obsessed with something. Sometimes my obsession would last a week/month/year/lifetime.
Its never anything important. Just stupid stuff. Like Capri Suns.
I remember I was absolutely obsessed with capri suns. I couldn't get enough of them. Orange, Tropical, mixed berries, apple. I loved them all and would drink them non stop. People bought me multipacks of capri sun for my 19th birthday, it was that bad.
I even remember winning one for some silly award at the EmoHardcore anniversary party in Ciaras house back in 2005. That was the stuff of GOLD.
I drank so many fucking capri suns that summer that I find it really hard to drink the stuff now unless its ICE chilled. But yeah. Ridiculous.
Another obsession that has followed me through my life has been my love for Dinosaurs.
Why Dinosaurs, you might ask?
Cause they're fucking AWESOME, thats why.
I really do love them. I love reading about them, looking at pictures of them, watching the land before time, Jurassic Park etc.
Anytime I go to the natural history museum in London, I get so excited that I nearly vomit in my mouth, and have upon occasion. hahaha
But yeah, my favourite is this fella:
He's called a Brontosaurus, also called Apatosaurus (means 'deceptive lizard') lived in the late Jurassic Period and were decendants from the Diplodocidae (basically other long necks). But yeah basically they wer just real friendly but still kick ass and vegetarian, just like me haha.
I still really want a dino tattoo. :D
Another Huge obsession of mine is with London.
From the very first time I went, I fell in love. I love everything about the place.
Last year I had major plans to move there and try and set up a life for myself over there. Opportunities arose for me in Ireland which meant I had to put my plans on the long finger. I'd still love to go and move there. Two friends of mine have recently made the move across the pond and are having the time of their lives. The fast paced london lifestyle is suiting them well.
I'm going over in eight days and I couldn't be more excited.
I <3 LDN.
Chanel has been another big one for the past couple of years.
Along with Moschino, Marc Jacobs, teeth, bones, food, emoticons, tea, coffee, Malboro Menthol, vintage clothing, Ebay, Multivitamin Juice, Kitties, Gold, Skirts and Dresses>Jeans and Pants, Teddies, Jersey, Kitchen stuff, Cardigans, Socks, Shoes>runners, Teapots, saying words like "RAD!!!" and "AWESOME!!!", bad jokes/bad sense of humour(I'm Sorry, okay?!), Quilts, waffles, Hands, Curls, Hot Water Bottles, Umbrellas...the list is endless.
But I have one obsession that will last a lifetime. And thats my love for all things live.
Music, dance, theatre.
I dont think theres anything better than a live performance.
It is my mecca and I love it. From the energy and atmosphere to the sense of community behind it. Whether you'r standing in the front row singing every word or standing in the back with your arms folded, soaking it all up or even sitting in the sittiest seat in the house half blocked by a fucking pillar (cause thats the only seat in the gaiety that you could afford) I recon the whole thing is magical.
Alot of shit can get in the way from enjoying a show, sometimes its macho shit, sometimes its meat heads taking their shirts off and sweating on you(municipal waste=eg), sometimes its sitting beside some asshole who just wont SHUT THE FUCK UP AND WATCH THE PLAY!!! Whatever it is, I say fuck what everyone else says or thinks or does, its all bollox anyway. So long as you can have a good time, just block that stuff out cause people are dicks anyway. Just enjoy yourself an be in the moment.
You might think upon reading this that I'm gettin abit over-sentimental about the whole thing, and so fucking what if I am. You're forgetting that Im a person who has a completely obsessive personality.
Awesome.
Its never anything important. Just stupid stuff. Like Capri Suns.
I remember I was absolutely obsessed with capri suns. I couldn't get enough of them. Orange, Tropical, mixed berries, apple. I loved them all and would drink them non stop. People bought me multipacks of capri sun for my 19th birthday, it was that bad.
I even remember winning one for some silly award at the EmoHardcore anniversary party in Ciaras house back in 2005. That was the stuff of GOLD.
I drank so many fucking capri suns that summer that I find it really hard to drink the stuff now unless its ICE chilled. But yeah. Ridiculous.
Another obsession that has followed me through my life has been my love for Dinosaurs.
Why Dinosaurs, you might ask?
Cause they're fucking AWESOME, thats why.
I really do love them. I love reading about them, looking at pictures of them, watching the land before time, Jurassic Park etc.
Anytime I go to the natural history museum in London, I get so excited that I nearly vomit in my mouth, and have upon occasion. hahaha
But yeah, my favourite is this fella:
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He's called a Brontosaurus, also called Apatosaurus (means 'deceptive lizard') lived in the late Jurassic Period and were decendants from the Diplodocidae (basically other long necks). But yeah basically they wer just real friendly but still kick ass and vegetarian, just like me haha.
I still really want a dino tattoo. :D
Another Huge obsession of mine is with London.
From the very first time I went, I fell in love. I love everything about the place.
Last year I had major plans to move there and try and set up a life for myself over there. Opportunities arose for me in Ireland which meant I had to put my plans on the long finger. I'd still love to go and move there. Two friends of mine have recently made the move across the pond and are having the time of their lives. The fast paced london lifestyle is suiting them well.
I'm going over in eight days and I couldn't be more excited.
I <3 LDN.
Chanel has been another big one for the past couple of years.
Along with Moschino, Marc Jacobs, teeth, bones, food, emoticons, tea, coffee, Malboro Menthol, vintage clothing, Ebay, Multivitamin Juice, Kitties, Gold, Skirts and Dresses>Jeans and Pants, Teddies, Jersey, Kitchen stuff, Cardigans, Socks, Shoes>runners, Teapots, saying words like "RAD!!!" and "AWESOME!!!", bad jokes/bad sense of humour(I'm Sorry, okay?!), Quilts, waffles, Hands, Curls, Hot Water Bottles, Umbrellas...the list is endless.
But I have one obsession that will last a lifetime. And thats my love for all things live.
Music, dance, theatre.
I dont think theres anything better than a live performance.
It is my mecca and I love it. From the energy and atmosphere to the sense of community behind it. Whether you'r standing in the front row singing every word or standing in the back with your arms folded, soaking it all up or even sitting in the sittiest seat in the house half blocked by a fucking pillar (cause thats the only seat in the gaiety that you could afford) I recon the whole thing is magical.
Alot of shit can get in the way from enjoying a show, sometimes its macho shit, sometimes its meat heads taking their shirts off and sweating on you(municipal waste=eg), sometimes its sitting beside some asshole who just wont SHUT THE FUCK UP AND WATCH THE PLAY!!! Whatever it is, I say fuck what everyone else says or thinks or does, its all bollox anyway. So long as you can have a good time, just block that stuff out cause people are dicks anyway. Just enjoy yourself an be in the moment.
You might think upon reading this that I'm gettin abit over-sentimental about the whole thing, and so fucking what if I am. You're forgetting that Im a person who has a completely obsessive personality.
Awesome.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Someone fix me,
My body aches all over.
Tomoro I'l be going on the search for a job. I'm hoping that I wont have to go back to working in a store thats packed full of assholes.
If I could get temping work, that'd be rad cuz the money isn't bad and at least I wont get stuck in the same place day in day out.
I really hope I get something soon. I havn't had a job since the 22nd December and already Im mind numbingly bored. (Thanks for the lend of all those books, Lisa)
Due to said boredom, I'v been spending abit of time on ebay. Doing abit of window shopping for when I can afford to buy things.
My list includes:
Delish Hello Kitty tablecloth
Smoke box
First edition copy of JD Salinger's "For Esme- with love and squalor"
This delish Little Red Ridinghood coat
YEAH.
Tomoro I'l be going on the search for a job. I'm hoping that I wont have to go back to working in a store thats packed full of assholes.
If I could get temping work, that'd be rad cuz the money isn't bad and at least I wont get stuck in the same place day in day out.
I really hope I get something soon. I havn't had a job since the 22nd December and already Im mind numbingly bored. (Thanks for the lend of all those books, Lisa)
Due to said boredom, I'v been spending abit of time on ebay. Doing abit of window shopping for when I can afford to buy things.
My list includes:
Delish Hello Kitty tablecloth
Smoke box
First edition copy of JD Salinger's "For Esme- with love and squalor"
This delish Little Red Ridinghood coat
YEAH.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Ramblings
While I was on tour I took to writing again. I saw alot of things on my travels that inspired me. This is just something about a girl I knew once. Her name was Ana.
................................................................................
Splitting headache and she's cold to the bone.
Shoulders are weighed down with the weight of a thousand years.
Salty tears sting her chapped lips.
But she cannot stop, nor can she let you know how tired she is from walking miles in uncomfortable shoes.
Minutes feel like days and every day that passes she gets a year older.
She is a million years old and the lines of her face tell stories of the sea.
She is love with the idea of being in love.
A feeling more fantastical than has ever been known.
She wants it all and she wants it now.
And sometimes she gets the fleeting feeling of infinity,
It courses through her veins faster then a bullet train.
But its there, it's always been there.
She walks down streets and passes the faces of people she knows but cannot recognise.
It makes no sense.
Headache grows with her confusion.
The pace of her daily routine is neither stationary, fast or slow.
But a combination of all three.
Black cats, lucky 13, horse shoes.
Fortune, favour and love.
It makes no sense how a relationship like this can be such a false friend.
................................................................................
Splitting headache and she's cold to the bone.
Shoulders are weighed down with the weight of a thousand years.
Salty tears sting her chapped lips.
But she cannot stop, nor can she let you know how tired she is from walking miles in uncomfortable shoes.
Minutes feel like days and every day that passes she gets a year older.
She is a million years old and the lines of her face tell stories of the sea.
She is love with the idea of being in love.
A feeling more fantastical than has ever been known.
She wants it all and she wants it now.
And sometimes she gets the fleeting feeling of infinity,
It courses through her veins faster then a bullet train.
But its there, it's always been there.
She walks down streets and passes the faces of people she knows but cannot recognise.
It makes no sense.
Headache grows with her confusion.
The pace of her daily routine is neither stationary, fast or slow.
But a combination of all three.
Black cats, lucky 13, horse shoes.
Fortune, favour and love.
It makes no sense how a relationship like this can be such a false friend.
if there's a god in the sky
only he can judge me, so until my dying day stay the fuck out of my face.
I love Cold World. This song in particular is pretty relevant to me right now.
I love Cold World. This song in particular is pretty relevant to me right now.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Have Heart
I hadn't been as excited in a long time about seeing a band.
I spent over four hours getting back to Dublin in time for the show and it lived up to every expectation I had.
First up to play were Real Talk! I really enjoyed their set and I really feel its a shame that the boys are taking a break cuz the last couple of times Iv seen them play they've been really tight and I'v had a great time watching them. Also, I love Joebreaker.
Next were Find Away followed by Forging Friendships.
I was delighted to hear the good news that Forging Friendships will be releasing a record with Hurry up and B9. Its about time a band from our scene got recognised for their amazing talent and dedication to hardcore. It made me really proud. Well done boys.
And Lastly, Have Heart. Im rarely one to sing at shows but I was so excited about this show that I knew I'd end up losing my shit.
The show was incredible. Flynner was rad and pretty much all the songs I wanted to hear and that actually meant something to me personally were played and I was completely blown away.
Thanks amillion to everyone who made it happen. I had one of the best nights of my life.
Love you guys.
x
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